Chinese New Year, 2012

除夕。
中午二阿姨家拜拜，晚上年夜飯吃火鍋。

桃紅配蔥綠

 

其實我根本找不到確切的詞語來形容這些顏色。

Tiramisu, and Sabina

    Weather in Taipei has been unbearably awful, almost raining for the whole winter. Even though this is my second year, I still find it hard to put up with this humid and cold city.
    These photos were taken in last November, before the raining season started to rage. Sabina and I were making Tiramisu for our baking club to sell. I love it when the afternoon sun casted into the kitchen and everything was covered with golden beam. Ahh…how I miss the sun!

 

Locked Up

alone

    These series of photos are from my album on facebook, which is also named alone. I had started to upload photos and sometimes wrote down thoughts in my mind which are mostly related to the theme alone since mid June, 2011. I guess that was when I started to feel stuck in my university life, not knowing what to do in the future and sick of the education system and craps like that. I uploaded the last photo to the album in the end of last year, not because that I’ve figured out how to deal with my life, but because I was faced with the probably lowest ebb in my life. Anyway, looking back, I decided to select some of them, which are more relevant to “alone,” and tried to rearrange them in a more corresponsive order. I hope I did convey through my works the feelings of being alone.

台北華山

大二下學期

　　快要開學了，其實滿煩的，但很多時候人生最重要的其實是「承擔」，而非只是大家所以為的「堅持」。承擔自己所做的決定，以及一切因之而繼的後果。
　　這是我在最沮喪時，渴求從某些陌生人的類似情境裡找到認同，而學到的。
　　「有時候你的堅持都是屁啊！」張懸說。
 
　　回來後我嘗試著投入，我還是喜歡人，喜歡四處走跳，喜歡每一次的接觸，從陌生相識，或者更加熟稔。
　　還是有很多喜歡的東西；好像每天都可以有許多想做的事。
　　每天睡前都先在腦海中把明天要做的事、要去的地方想過一遍，排順序。然後可以強迫自己不賴床，儘管冷。捨不得再睡，因為世界太大。
 
　　還是會累會膩。
　　還是時常覺得空虛，覺得人生再怎麼樣終究逃不開虛無。
　　「我回過頭看我12歲時寫的東西，發現自己仍舊在追尋同樣的事物。」James在性愛巴士的衣櫃裡頭邊哭邊說。
　　我看電影很少哭，18歲前尤其如此。但我記得第一次躲在客廳偷偷看這部片時，被重擊。
 
　　大概能最鮮明確切說出口的永遠是討厭的東西，但至少我們知道自己不會喜歡什麼。
 
　　雖然仍得不時說服、甚至強迫自己，才能有足夠的勇氣繼續走，但別佇立著一動也不動，是吧？
 
　　所有的一切都為了自己，但別自私。
　　每天都要留給自己一些時間全然的獨處。
 
　　至於我們，各自生活，偶爾約會。
　　我想這樣會很好，我希望你們都很好。