February 27, 2012

Tiramisu, and Sabina

    Weather in Taipei has been unbearably awful, almost raining for the whole winter. Even though this is my second year, I still find it hard to put up with this humid and cold city.
    These photos were taken in last November, before the raining season started to rage. Sabina and I were making Tiramisu for our baking club to sell. I love it when the afternoon sun casted into the kitchen and everything was covered with golden beam. Ahh…how I miss the sun!

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Locked Up

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February 24, 2012

alone

    These series of photos are from my album on facebook, which is also named alone. I had started to upload photos and sometimes wrote down thoughts in my mind which are mostly related to the theme alone since mid June, 2011. I guess that was when I started to feel stuck in my university life, not knowing what to do in the future and sick of the education system and craps like that. I uploaded the last photo to the album in the end of last year, not because that I’ve figured out how to deal with my life, but because I was faced with the probably lowest ebb in my life. Anyway, looking back, I decided to select some of them, which are more relevant to “alone,” and tried to rearrange them in a more corresponsive order. I hope I did convey through my works the feelings of being alone.

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February 19, 2012

大二下學期

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  快要開學了,其實滿煩的,但很多時候人生最重要的其實是「承擔」,而非只是大家所以為的「堅持」。承擔自己所做的決定,以及一切因之而繼的後果。
  這是我在最沮喪時,渴求從某些陌生人的類似情境裡找到認同,而學到的。
  「有時候你的堅持都是屁啊!」張懸說。
 
  回來後我嘗試著投入,我還是喜歡人,喜歡四處走跳,喜歡每一次的接觸,從陌生相識,或者更加熟稔。
  還是有很多喜歡的東西;好像每天都可以有許多想做的事。
  每天睡前都先在腦海中把明天要做的事、要去的地方想過一遍,排順序。然後可以強迫自己不賴床,儘管冷。捨不得再睡,因為世界太大。
 
  還是會累會膩。
  還是時常覺得空虛,覺得人生再怎麼樣終究逃不開虛無。
  「我回過頭看我12歲時寫的東西,發現自己仍舊在追尋同樣的事物。」James在性愛巴士的衣櫃裡頭邊哭邊說。
  我看電影很少哭,18歲前尤其如此。但我記得第一次躲在客廳偷偷看這部片時,被重擊。
 
  大概能最鮮明確切說出口的永遠是討厭的東西,但至少我們知道自己不會喜歡什麼。
 
  雖然仍得不時說服、甚至強迫自己,才能有足夠的勇氣繼續走,但別佇立著一動也不動,是吧?
 
  所有的一切都為了自己,但別自私。
  每天都要留給自己一些時間全然的獨處。
 
  至於我們,各自生活,偶爾約會。
  我想這樣會很好,我希望你們都很好。